I had a dream last night that I won the lottery

So I am writing it down, because when I write things down they come to fruition more so than if I just keep it in the back of my mind. I won $3,000,000 I was a bit bummed because I had the figure $25,000,000 in the back of my mind and thought I could do a lot more with $25,000,000 - this is actually they way I think. Nothings ever good enough for me ;)

So maybe I will get closer to winning some money, since I had a dream about it or it could be just because I saw that post, were aussie psycics won 1.8 million and they new they were going to win it. Can't be bothered finding the story.

Also went to the movies with abloodredbird (not her real name) and saw Zodiac. It wasn't bad. I thought it dragged on a little bit and the ending was a bit weak. Still I probably would never seen it, if it wasn't for red ;) Gosh I like Jake Gyllenhaal and Mark Ruffalo - honeys.

New cafe guy - good move

Well I went to my new local cafe hangout. It's tiny but I love it. A yougish italian guy owns it, but he's the true italian that puts an accent on the ends of names. He makes the best coffee as well. So he's not your dosh, dosh Italian. Anyway, he's really friendly and knows all the customers name and chats with us. I probably was one of his first customers, so I kind of understand his hope and dreams for the cafe and he knows where I work.

Anyway, he's got a new cafe guy on board and let me tell you this guy is a honey. Smart move by Italian owner, girls will come in droves. He's quite attractive, but has that sweet, friendly personality. He kind of reminds me of the Aus guy on sex in the city (that went out with Samatha) but more clever and friendly. He definetly could be a model. Anyway, coldplay was playing in the background and I he (new guy) just started humming and singing. I kind of was doing it too, made me smile. I guess he wasn't afraid to show that he liked coldplay, most young guys would think coldplay is crap, but I like that he wasn't afraid to be himself. I guess I'm just pointing this out because well, I like that type personality and I just made me happy. I will freely admit I like coldplay, even though a lot of people would say they are crap, but at the end of the day, it's about what music makes you happy and who cares if it's not too cool for school, or it's too commercial. Coldplay puts a smile on my face :)

Anyway, Italian owner asked me about a project of his and if I could inquire at my work about it - so I will, It's acually a great idea. I wont delve into here, because it's his idea. Would be cool if it took off though. Italian guy is very much an ideas man - I like it. We need more cutting edge people in our community.

My mood today is very happy. I think it has to do with the bright blue sky. If I had a laptop I could work outside and that would of made me even more happier.

Oh and I purchased a new tv and dvd player the otherday. It's great. I think I'm spending too much money at the moment need to stop this retail therapy business.

I felt a bit emo today

I felt a bit emo today, without really realising it. I was all in black and had a hoody jumper that could look kind of emo and I also had this bag, that's really cute but probably more for girls in there early 20's. It's black with a pattern repeat of little apples in lots of bright colours. A girl at one of the clothing stores commeted on it and said "I love your bag". I Love it too, although it's kind of youngish. I will be 28 soon.

Anyway, I went to knox and there was heaps of emos there so I fitted in well. God that place is terrible, it's like a dive. Strangly enough I noticed a lot of deaf people there - not sure why?

Anyway, I picked up some Annette Syms cookbooks, which I have been searching high and low for. I'll have to give the receipes a go tomorrow.

I also purchased a few pairs of jeans, because I have managed to loose some weight, without trying. So I've lost about a dress size, which is good. Don't ask me how, all I can put it down to is a tiny bit more exersise, but really hardly anything to call home about. Anyway, hopefully I can keep up the momento, because I feel a lot more attractive in the face and then I think well imagine how much more attractive you would feel if you get down to a size 10-12. I would feel HOT! I kind of forgetten that I can look ok in the face and just accepted that I'll just look yucky, but I think there is some prettyness in me somewhere.

It's funny when I was in the car I was thinking back to when I was younger, much younger, think highschool and I was quite a popular lady with the guys - don't ask me why, I never found myself that attractive. Ok maybe it was because I developed early, but I think there was more to it than that. Guys did really fall for me and to be honest I hated it. I hated the attention and hated the fact guys were smitten over me. I just never liked or accepted the fact that guys fancied me. I think that could have a lot to do with me putting on weight, because I was never comfortable with guys liking me for my looks and hated the attention. Hmm so I don't know really what my point was with this paragraph, but I guess it's something to keep in mind.

I was also thinking about the guys I always attract and I think it's happening again - lol! Skateboarders, do not ask me why? I haven't got a single sports bone in my body, but every guy that has been a good friend or fancied me have been skateboarders. I don't even hang out with skateboarders, but I still attract them. What's up with that? I don't want skateboarders, although lovely...I'm 28 and want someone sensible, not someone that's into exteme sports. Anyway, this is another pointless paragraph.

I also was thinking, whilst shopping that I look like a bit of young bum. No one would guess that I am on a pretty good wage and that I actually have a career. I bet people think I'm still 18 and work at maccas - lol!

I'm going to leave it at that for the moment.

A lesbians friend b'day

So I went to an old friends birthday. She came out quite a few years ago and to be honest I haven't kept in touch with her that much. Not because she's a lesbian, just because.

Anyway, I was kind of dreading the whole thing, because I think lesbians can be quite clicky, but hey that might be just my silly built up in my mind perception, also I always imagine them to be quite hard core into their culture and well I just wouldn't have much in common with them. Anyway, the bash wasn't too bad, it was held at her and her girlfriends house and they had family and friends there. I kind of stuck to the family, maybe that was silly of me, but the family were really nice and down- to-earth. So that made it all that more comfortable. To be honest as I said in a previous post, I hate crowded bars and restaurants and maybe that's why I wasn't as keen to go to N birthday last time, because it was a huge hardcore birthday with drag queens etc and well I'll like smaller, quite, low key gatherings. Anyway, I told N that I do find the lesbians seem to have there own click and I don't always feel like I'm welcome in their world.

Anyway, N new girlfriends seemed really nice. I wonder if she was a bit insecure, because when N came outside to bid me farewell, we were reminising about old times for quite a while. Anyway N's girlfriend came out after a while, probably wondering why N was taking so long. Anyway, she found us and she was all cuddly and touchy feely with N, and I was wondering if she was threatened - lol! He he! Anyway, seems N in a good place and seems happy. I just hope her girlfriend becomes more comfortable in her own skin, she's so quite and needs to feel secure with herself. Although, I'm sure it's not easy being a lesbian from what N told me - they cop a lot of slack for being different.

girl names

I always thinks about girls names if I ever had kids. A few names have come to my mind in the last few weeIs, so I don't forget them I'm writing them here

Indigo
Indianna
Isabella

I've always liked Milly as well. Indigo is a real favourite of mine at the moment.

I'm so excited!

Ok well I'm not really, but I couldn't think of a good title for this post and since I had the Pointer Sisters on in the background with "I'm so excited", I thought...well that's the what I'm going to name this blog, and so, it is so.

I had a lovely catch up with Emski last night, good food and fine wine (ok maybe it wan't fine wine), but you get the idea. We went down to Sydney Rd, I haven't really explored Sydney Rd in years. It's changed quite a bit since I used to hang out there, but still kind of has the same feel, just a few more trendy shop added into the mix, which was always inevitable.

I was really wanting to listen to really 80's dorky ,but high spirited music last night (it's a phase). I think it means I'm in a mainly positive part of my life. Anyway, Emski put some music channel on in the background that was meant to be mainly 80's music, but really it was a disspointment - think Rick Ashley, that's what was mainly playing. I was kind of bummed out, but then the taxi arrived and what was playing...a great 80's song, which I can't for the life of me remember but it was good and put a smile on my face and actually my taxi driver was really nice. He was telling me how he is really into his music and what his kids are into. He also asked what my star sign was, cause he said I seemed really level headed, unlike his children - lol!

I told him I'm a libran and he was like yeah that makes sense - lol!

Anyway, it was a nice drive home and I know he wasn't being sleezy he just was a really down to earth, easy going dad with grown children.

I went back into the city this morning to pick something up from work and I was starving by 11 am so on my way home I went to Arcadia Cafe in Gertrude Street. I love going to that cafe when I'm near there, it's not as crowded as some of the other cafes. I have to tell you, I'm not a fan of crowded cafes and bars. I prefer the less is more cafes. I had poached eggs and yes...bacon. I always feel like that after having wine the night before.

Poached eggs on great toast is probably my favourite meal of all time - I never get sick of it -yum!

On another note, I'm contimplating getting one of these babies. Isn't it sexy? For the fricken price it should be. Since I don't indulge into many techie things, I thinking let me spoil myself this once. But what's depressing I could buy a cheapy car for another $7,000 - yikes. Oh well you only live once.

mmm so really I have avoided writing anything interesting.

Why is that? Maybe because my life is pretty boring.

Well I guess I haven't written about my job, it's going well. It can be really stressful at times, especially when so many people have input into my designs, but anyway there a worse things in life. I can't complain too much and the work environment is great. I don't have to deal with any annoying people who grate on my nerves. Infact S, says she loves me in the office because I always see the postive side of things - lol! She's says, "I'm not bitter and twisted and put a great perspective on things" -lol! Little does she know ;)

I'm also now a "teacher" - who would of thunked? I teach one night a week and the pays pretty good. My first lesson was last week and well it went well and I really enjoyed it - apart from the headace. I definetly could see myself teaching full-time later down the track. I was very comfortable doing it and I just felt happy doing it. It was great that the students took such avid interest and I even had a student stay back and chat to me - that's always a good sign. I always knew teaching would be natural to me, so it's a great opportunity that I able to teach and good on my resume as well.

I was talking to a work collegue about how I come across to people initially. We both agreed that I stand back and absorb what's going on. I definetly analyze and I guess I can come across as shy/reserved, but really that's not me. Well not around my really close family and friends. I don't know why I put up this wall initially, I wish I could be more at ease and natural when I first people. I wonder how someone who I met last weekend for drinks, thought of me (she might be reading this and she knows who she is ;) )

Get a few drinks in me and I'm a blast ;) Maybe that's the soloution, to be a full time drunk - ok maybe not.

I had a few drinks tonight with workmates, so I'm probably a bit more reflective tonight.

I really don't know what else to write - how boring am I?

ok I had a bit a laugh with this one -

celine dion's son